“Oh there you are”

The warm air kissed my face as i left the coffee shop feeling as if i was light as a feather after my meeting with Brad, my new friend and writing coach. He had just cracked open my brain with the most brilliant ideas, suggestions, and direction for writing my awakening memoir. i felt the hot seat warm my bottom as I started the car – the radio blasting Stevie Nicks into my ears – i was hoping to get home before the traffic kicked in but I didn’t get very far.

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when two or more of you gather in my name…

We sat at a quiet table next to the window there were hardly anyone in the small Japanese restaurant and i was glad because it had been almost a year since i last saw Steve and there was so much to say and convey. As always when we get together the energy starts vibrating but this time something was quite different. Within minutes i felt this wonderful feeling of bliss and being home i was an integral piece of a magnificent presence that was everywhere and everything. It struck me in an unforgettable and unimaginable way as i thought of one of my favorite passages from the bible – when two or more of you gather in my name…

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my divine marching orders

Since the inception of this blog my insistence on being totally transparent has occasionally made me uncomfortable because in all those experiences where i have had great clarity i realized, early on, that i am writing for you, rather than myself; as i have been instructed to share for reasons beyond my knowing.   So this post definitely falls into that category because i am sharing a very personal communication.  What i thought was going to be a “time alone” road trip to Phoenix turned out to be my divine “marching orders” into a totally new teaching ciriculumn that i could never have imagined.   Continue Reading →

out of my cocoon

Over a year ago, after i completed my last class i decided to take a break from speaking and sharing as i felt that my newborn awakening, at the time, prevented me by default from leading others.  my enthusiam for sharing was crushed by the weight of what i didn’t know; i tried for as long as my excitement could hold me but as the depth of my new reality was fathomed i needed to back away and reassess.  my blog was my rudder as i meandered through my early experiences in awakening until just recently when feeling completely re-assembled, like a butterfly, I was ready to come out of my cocoon… back on purpose.  Continue Reading →

breaking-through into bliss

My first awakening experience was filled with grace, most unexpectedly, and completely out of my control.  Since then the tables have been shifted and i seemed to be doing all the heavy lifting. Such has been the case over the last few days, being laid low with bizarre physical symtoms that had me on the ropes for many days.  Just a few hours ago it finally released me, as if to say, “lesson learned”, as i felt a breaking-through into bliss.  Continue Reading →

only loving is left

Up until a few months ago my daily practice has been to wake up every morning and ask myself  “what can i do today to further along my awakening?  My desire to “do” something seemed logical but not quite in alignment with my heart.  Some still small piece of my monkey mind kept trying to divert my attention back to doing and then the answer came to me like a whispering voice in my head “there is nothing more to do… only loving is left.” Continue Reading →

a drop of rain returning to an ocean of divine love.

Inside the mind of this body are some beautiful thoughts trying to escape out onto this page. They are struggling desperately.  They want to describe a beautiful experience that i had a few days ago but can’t find the words or mental processes to enable a transmission.  It’s as if i lost all of my writing mojo.  i don’t feel at loss since my desire to put words to my experiences now seem inept and corruptive.  What happened you might ask?  All that i can say is that the bliss has developed into a pervasive peace which seemingly on its own accord has released me like a drop of rain returning to the ocean of divine love.  Continue Reading →