“What’s wrong?” my wife Rita asks as i realized that i couldn’t quite hide my angst and frustration from her for very long. i’ve been quiet, all day, moving about the house from my office to the kitchen and back to my desk or meditation chair, as if changing the scenery would answer the critical… Read More about trust in a divine plan
Nights are my new days
Nights are my new days
Each night while i sleep there seems to be a part of my soul that wakes up, shaves and showers, gets dressed and ready for work; the night shift…a process of remembering and healing. Last night my first interview was with the fear of not being good enough. There i was facing it’s illusions and… Read More about Nights are my new days
let thy will be done the ultimate surrender
let thy will be done the ultimate surrender
The most beautiful words with their magnificent meanings and melodies are yet still words and concepts and thereby fall short of the reality of how we get to know ourselves. The past descriptions of my many evenings in the tub are standing up to testify tonight as i find myself struggling with the worst of… Read More about let thy will be done the ultimate surrender
nature surrendering to life
nature surrendering to life
Since my last two posts my body has been trying to get over a cold without much success. While i realized that asking for help to stop the headache was a desperate act i also knew that there was still much more to let go of. In the beautiful alpine environment of Vail at about… Read More about nature surrendering to life
unpacking my experiences with the mind
unpacking my experiences with the mind
the days that followed my incredible lesson in surrender were filled with a desire to understand what happened. While i thought it was a simple “desire to know” impulse it was instead more like an unconscious wish to unpack some mental zip file that was downloaded into my mind from the experience. i had heard… Read More about unpacking my experiences with the mind